Why did you have to leave me?? I told you every day how happy I was to have you and how happy you made me. I had a whole future planned out for the two of us. I made sure I did everything right.... Yet you still left.

It seemed like you were with me for ages but you were only here for a very short time. I'd talk to you everyday and tell you how perfect everything was going to be and how loved you already were. I would have given you all I had and more.

I'd do anything to have you here with me. You were my whole world. I was determined to make everything perfect. Just the two of us, we didn't need anyone else. They didn't deserve you anyway. You were far too special for them. They didn't care as much as I did and they couldn't have loved you as much as I did.

It's been nine months, to the day, since you left me. 9 months since my world was torn apart. It's as if there is a piece of me missing, a piece of my heart has been taken.

I still see things that remind me of you.... I still have your things lying around my apartment and I refuse to get rid of them. I will never forget you and you shall never be replaced.

I just don't understand what I did wrong? What did I ever do to deserve this? It's just not fair!! I love you so damn much!! I'd do anything to have you here in my arms right now. Anything to make it all better again.

But, I can't.